We are going through a bit of a rough patch here. I can't (won't) share it. I will say, if you pray, say a prayer.
I lived in despair for the past 3 weeks. I was up and down and all around. I looked subtly for clues, good or bad, but just clues. I read more into things that weren't there and didn't catch other signs that were there.
I prayed. I pleaded with God. I worried constantly. Finally I sought the advice of others and the prayers of many. I knew this was a battle others had to help us pray for.
We are still in the middle of the rough patch and it could be a long time before it gets resolved, if it gets resolved.
My "mantra" of what I have clung to the last few weeks is from the Bible and also from a popular song "There will be pain and suffering but joy comes in the morning." We are in that pain and suffering right now, but I trust and believe down the road there will be joy in the morning.
Even if I am not alive to see that joy. But I trust God and his promises and there will be joy.
So what do we do right now? How do we wait it out? Do I stew and worry and lose sleep and work myself up to a tizzy about it? Do I let it consume me constantly with wanting to talk about it, dwell on it, try to solve it when it is not mine to solve.
Or do I just wait and trust and remember God and his promises and his faithfulness.
A bit came to resolution (not favorably in my opinion) Friday night. Wisely hubby talked me through some things Saturday morning and we formulated a plan of what our actions should be.
And then a bit of hope Saturday afternoon. I had joined Next Door after Myra told me about it (by the way, Myra, happy anniversary to you and your hubby and wishing you many wonderful years together, we had a lot of fun tonight and I'm still full from that delicious dinner you served us). I just joined this past Monday. A message was posted yesterday that gave me hope in its content and suddenly my worry, my fear, my anxiety was actually turned to hope. It could work. It might work.
Today at church the pastor gave a great sermon about God's faithfulness and keeping his promises and ended the sermon with us all singing "He's Still Got the Whole World in His Hands." The original words are "He's Got the Whole World in his Hands." He said when he is fearful about something, he sings those worlds to his situation, like if he is worried about the upcoming election he sings "He's Still Got the Whole Election in His Hands," etc.
Remember my "mantra" through this all has been "there will be pain and suffering through the night, but joy comes in the morning." A song "One Thing Remains" has those words in it. We sang it at church today. I don't pick the songs nor know what songs will be sung week to week (unless hubby is on the worship team that week and this week he wasn't). Again confirmation God knows what we are going through.
It won't be an easy road ahead. But I know who will be walking that road with us. And He is faithful. And he keeps his promises. And there will be joy in the morning. No matter how many mornings it takes to get there.
But there will be joy.
I trust in God for that.
I trust you Lord.
You still have the whole world in your hands.
You never let go.
And you never will.