I cannot put this off any longer than I have already put it off and please forgive me that I didn't say anything sooner. When it happened, it was December 23rd, too close to Christmas to really want to say anything and dampen anyone's Christmas joy. And too busy afterwards and then not the best internet or keyboard to write on. Finally today hubby is getting his pre employment physical and I'm using his laptop.
There is no easy way to say this so I'll just go ahead and say it.
We had to put Koda to sleep on December 23rd. Totally unexpected at the time, but in looking back, what we thought was his age and his blindness, was that cancer coming back. And boy did it come back. Aggressive and with a vengeance.
He had that checkup in October with the swollen gland and there were no cancer cells.
Somewhere between then and December 23rd the lymphoma returned. I won't go into all the "gory" details, but he was a sick pup. The vet said she didn't think he was in pain, but that he just didn't feel well.
We could have started chemo again, but we had said we wouldn't if the lymphoma returned. We could have bought him maybe 2 weeks up to 2 months.
But we knew that wouldn't be fair to him. Traveling to a new house, new state, new vet, etc., for just a "temporary" fix. The lymphoma was going to kill him and kill him soon.
So we made the tough decision no pet owner wants to make, but the decision so many do.
We were devastated of course, but know and trust in God's perfect timing. It would have been hard for Koda to adapt to a new house blind. We were also wondering how he would do on the drive over.
We will always miss him and think of him with fondness and love. We have decided though not to get another dog for at least a year. We did not mind taking care of him, giving him his twice a day insulin shots, etc., but we decided to take a break from having any pets while we adjust to Arizona.
I wrote this in my journal 2 days after he died.
Koda 12/1/2004 to 12/23/2014.
He lived his dash lovingly, loyally, contentedly, spunkily, spoily, food drivenly.
He brought joy, love, laughs to his family and friends,
He will always be loved, always be missed.
Thank you Lord for the wonderful gift you gave us in Koda. It was our privilege to have him in our family and to lovingly take care of him.
Thank you Koda for being such a special dog.