A lot of bloggers and others pick a word they will "concentrate" on in the new year.
I started doing this back in 2010; that year the word was "trust". I was going to trust God no matter what, even if it didn't make sense with what was going on.
In 2011, my word was "choice". I had the choice on how I handled situations; I could be grateful or whiny, humble or proud, you get the idea.
Last year's word was "seek". I was going to seek God with my whole heart, whole soul, whole mind.
This year I had a word that I really thought was the word of the year, but then last week one morning during my quiet time, another word popped into my mind which sort of goes with the first word I picked.
I'm doing a Bible study "Live a Praying Life" by Jennifer Kennedy Dean. (thanks Kathy for telling me about it).
I'm learning a lot about prayer that I hadn't known before. I knew prayer was important and was how we communicate with God, but this has opened my eyes up more about it.
So I thought that was the word of the year. Prayer. To really pray, to align my heart with God's will.
But that morning as I was doing the study, I realized something. A lot of the times when I pray, I want the answer in my agenda, my timing, my will, my way rather than what God's timing, way, or will would be.
And I'm not patient about waiting.
I have to say I'm not a patient person. I think it even began before I was born. Of my mom's three children, I was the only one that arrived four days before my delivery date and not a week or two later like my sister and brother.
When I started to really have a relationship with God, when I was in my 40s, I realized I was not very patient so I prayed to God for it. I was frustrated with waiting for red lights, long waits at doctors' offices, slow lines at the grocery store, slow people walking in front of me, you get it. I didn't like how I would be, getting so worked up over what now seems so trivial.
So I prayed for patience. You know the rest of that story.
God answered the prayer, but boy did I have a lot of times where I really had to exhibit self control while learning to be patient. Catching every single red light while running late for something, waiting in line at the store with the slowest cashier ringing up an order with someone that had multiple coupons, questions, etc., but boy did I learn patience and I am much more patient these days.
Yet, I'm still impatient with God on prayers prayed that are yet answered. Of a love one coming to know God, lately of a job for husband, or of healing for friends and family.
Yet I must remember God's timing is always worth waiting for and always comes at the right time, even when it seems impossible. One thing I do know about God is he is faithful, he always keeps his promise and his word and he has never disappointed me. So I must learn to be patient just like he taught me years before. Not just patient on trivial matters like red lights, but on more eternal matters like salvation of a loved one and trust in him and his timing. Or a job for hubby.......or more stability in my work.......
Its hard though.
But its my word of the year. Patience.
So I give it to you Lord, your timing, your way, your will. Help me to be patient and wait for you. You are always worth it.
Romans 8:25 But if we hope for what we don't yet have, we wait for it patiently.