Saturday, April 14, 2012
The older I get the more I forget, LOL. I used to be able to keep a grocery list in my head of what I need. Now I have to write down what we need and then I still end up forgetting things. I used to be able to hear a phone number one time and remember it for a very long time.
I am concerned about losing my memory as I age. I wonder if I will get dementia. If I had a choice between a painful physical condition or losing my memory, I would take the painful physical condition over losing my memory. My mom was sharp as a tack as she aged until her final week of life when the morphine made her a bit confused. Hubby's mom suffered from dementia and while she always recognized her loved ones, she often wasn't oriented to where she was at the time, thinking she was in a different town or a different year.
I type reports of patients who aren't a reliable historian as the doctors like to say. It saddens me to type those words because you know at one time of their lives they were more than likely very sharp, intelligent in their fields of knowledge, yet the illness robbed them of that.
I saw the frustration in hubby's dad's dealing with his wife's dementia. He was always apologizing that she was confused, he was constantly reminding her of this fact or that fact if she wasn't in the present time with her thoughts and words.
Losing my memory does concern me. I actually asked God to allow me to keep it.
I know some people say playing games, stimulating the mind is a good thing. Or not eating this or eating that. I don't know. What I do know though is my mom played games, word games, word searches, card games, etc. Hubby's mom rarely did. Is there a correlation? I doubt it. But interesting.
I practice too the answers to the mini mental status exam doctors give patients to see how they are doing with their memory. Its a series of 30 questions, seeing if they are oriented to time, place, person, if they can perform certain tasks.
Like spelling "world" backwards. I practice that a lot "d-l-r-o-w". Or subtracting serial 7s from 100, 93, 86, 79, 72, 65 and so on. Drawing a clock face. Given three objects to remember, say "pen", "clock" "orange" and seeing if you can recall them five minutes later. And other questions.
Then I wonder, will I know that I'm losing my memory? Am I losing my memory now and I just don't know it? Am I repeating stories I just told? So far I haven't gotten lost anywhere or left the stove on when I wasn't cooking something (but I have forgotten I had something cooking on the stove when I was in the other room working, but it never burned, I did remember it eventually). I go into a room with an intent to get something and then forget what it was.
I just hope I keep my memory as I age. Am I the only one concerned about this?